YES SHE STRUGGLES!!!

My dreams matter

Then sometimes they don’t

Blown by the clone.

Living a double life

I hope my afterlife is as exciting my current life

100 people 2 bedroom and a sun porch

I don’t know how my grandmother did it

Long nights up

Worn out knees

Dried up tears

I could only imagine

Broken like a crayon

Yet we still color

No lights

So karaoke..it is

No heat so we use the stove top

Praying to god that it would stop

No food so we use…

Flashback

Cousin calls chinese store

No money

Wait any hour

Comes back in with blood in right hand

Food in the left

No we don’t

Yes we do

No, I’m not sure

I’m not sure what to say because

What goes on in this house stays in this house

Lies in this house

Hurts in this house

Fights in this house

But we still get up

And go to school

Like nothing happen

Acting as if..nothing happened

When I am the house

The house is within

This house has changed my life

And has set me apart from all the others in this life

I’ve been raised and bred differently

So differently that people assume that I’m royalty, greatness, and queenly

All before I can begin to utter a word

My words have been good to me, but bad to them

Sometimes I regret what I’ve said

And sometimes I hold on to it so tightly that the words sink into my body

Sit in my mind

But my body can not handle such toxic

So, it throws it up and spits it out

Like a white person bad soul food

I guess my spirit isn’t made that way

It wasn’t raised that way

I’ve learned to love all my struggles and I regret not one

But some still linger in the back of my mind

Because my struggles created me

Struggle says to “She”

YOU don’t look that bad after all.

By Tymeera Freeman

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